devotedlove

10/01/2012

2012-01-10T22:40:00.001+08:00

Hey Guys!I have gotten back my result yesterday!Guess what i manage to get the minimum point to get to poly!D7 Eh!I was so lucky.Haha A bright new beginning for me,like everything in my life starts to begin.

1/1/2012

2012-01-01T23:15:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone!It's 2012 are you guys excited about the upcoming year?Yes i do!I have my own resolution for 2012 and hopefully i will be happy for the year!All the best

22/11/2011

2011-11-22T15:17:00.002+08:00

It's 22th November 2011 and my bed is gonna arrive soon!I just so excited and couldn't wait to watch ''Breaking Dawn 1'' on 24th November thursday.I have work on that day so i probably watching on Friday 11.30pm on yishun Gv!I'm just freaking excited... ...It had been long since ''Eclipse'',but now i'm watching alone!!!Haha it's okay watch finish and go home sleep!Every girl tat had pass-by i find them they are ordinary.Most probably you are extraordinary and i just wanna date you out for a movie!

20/11/2011

2011-11-20T22:13:00.001+08:00

It had been a hard day for me today.I almost wanted to quit and lost my temper due to some Fucktards customers.From this experience I learnt that it's easy to say and it's hard to do.I also learnt that I want to e a rich guy.Money plays around.

12/11/2011

2011-11-13T00:32:00.001+08:00

Extremely tired as always.Recently I have been working and I happened to see some couples during the weekend at town.So I have this mindset of thinking that I wouldn't need a relationship but my friends all has one .So I have a deeper thought that I might work hard to find one,something that I would ever feel.Haha hopefully Eh!!Okay got to sleep now Nights all :)

1/11/2011

2011-11-01T22:44:00.001+08:00

I will be starting work tomorrow.Hope everything will be easy ahead :)

25/10/2011

2011-10-25T01:38:00.003+08:00

O level english paper had ended and i find the paper easy with the wrong answer.Paper 1 was not that good and i scare i will just write out of point.As for paper two Wasn't that hard but is just that i could not understand.What to do hope for the best!

21/10/2011

2011-10-21T23:27:00.002+08:00

Hi peeps!!!My exam starts on monday!Guess what i'm extremely anxious and totally freak out.Looking most of my secondary school friends are having great times in poly.How envy of them.

19-10-2011

2011-10-19T01:06:00.002+08:00

Okay i ''believe there are readers here''.Hows my new blogskin looks uh?Cooler than the old one?Changed everything due to the boredom of the old ones!Exam is coming and i feel so nervous for the first time.Afterall English is not like math,POA,Science!It cannot be calculated!Okay i got to go Enjoy!Kinda not a standard of post uh =O

12/10/2011

2011-10-12T23:03:00.003+08:00

2011 is a year which i think made my life ''exciting''.Everything happened were like a drama.Actually i'm not mentally prepared and it is the first time that i encounter such problems.I might be scare,helpless but i'm not a weakling.I will stay strong!Hopefully my parents out there now are fine.I couldn't explain or face the problems they are facing.I'm still waiting for them to be home.For now i can do is to take care of the house and i have been thinking who would be the betrayer after so long of peace.Fuck that fucker betray...

8/10/2011

2011-10-08T02:51:00.002+08:00

They are much more for me to know and it isn't a wrong thing to like someone.I just totally missed out most of the thing that i could see from her normally.It was a total different of her,her smile,her jokes and many minor stuffs that i couldn't figure out.I wouldn't know what will happen in the future and if i wouldn't give up at this point of time, i believe i will be able to make it.Whatever the outcome is,i did my best and live with no regrets. people out there having a relationship please treasure it!It's really hard to find someone special in your life and this period of time i should get a change of myself.Be more mature and have a brighty future to face her again with confidents.Something that i have that others don't.Have belief and miracles might just hit on me!Who knows haha!

05/10/2011

2011-10-05T23:12:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Gillian!I wish you a great day ahead and stay health as aways.You're a great person and also a great friend.You're someone that will be treasured and all i could do is just to ''say'' at here without any actions taken.I hope you don't mind that actually the feelings for you had not changed at all.I know this might be a little annoying for you, but i just want to say those words to you.I know i'm been selfish by telling you this,which you will be not interested.I mean no harm i just want you to know my thoughts.Afterall, i just want to be a friend,a friend that could drink coffee.The feeling is so weird and is unexplainable.I gave you a present when we're secondary 4,i hope you did not throw it.Is the stars i wrapped for you and the wishes.I'm always surprise to see your msg even though is about other things.I shall not continue!Happy birthday to you!

1/10/2011

2011-10-01T01:43:00.002+08:00

Today i went back to Naval base secondary school with mine chemistry classmates and the reason why we're going back is because one of the chem student had decided to celebrate for our teacher Miss Boon.Is really great that we're able to meet up again at such special occasion and i bet Miss Boon will be surprising!I was late and i think she wasn't happy with me, but is already over so nevermind.The organiser is really a great person and from the celebration is all her work,from present ,card and cake.Alot of work had been done by her and i felt really not good as we're only just paying money and she does the work.I would want to share the work but i couldn't say much and i wouldn't want to cause any misunderstanding.So what i did was ''Consult me if you need help''.I wonder if i were Miss Boon, the one who had gotten her present.I would really be very Blissful!But the fact is it will never be able to wait for the day, because it is impossible.I was standing today and i could really feel and know what she was thinking, i guess?I just have more to talk to her,i want to ask her out for a coffee?Can we really meet up again?Why would you be so awkward when i'm around?Do you really so dislike me?Or is it i once admired you?Is that the reason?I really wants to say everything out,but what the point?I would get hurt more but even i knew i would wants to know the answer.But come to think about it i shouldn't be so selfish,if i really likes her why must i say it out,does saying helps?So i did not say it out,maybe i'm just not her type.I so not into sports,so overweight.She needs someone that really share the same interest as her.I just couldn't say anything when i met her.Sorry to say that stanley.Maybe i'm just another stanley to her.I really have hard feelings,no-one to approach!I have to depend on myself, i still have time to prove myself.I just couldn't gets to know every single thing from her except i know her favourite colour?Red?Basketball?I WOULD REALLY WANT TO CELEBRATE HER BIRTHDAY WITH HER!I WOULD WANT TO ORGANISE ONE FOR HER!I COULDN'T!I was saying my last goodbye and i was waving at her and she doesn't seems looking at me.That broke my day.Life is hard, it isn't about eat and sleep anymore.As i grow older many other things meant alot.Hope she would see this, i would really ask for time for me to change and go for her.Or someone just slap me til i'm awake!3 years?5years?10years?Love is really about timing and fate.

29/09/2011

2011-09-30T00:23:00.002+08:00

Is really great to see everyone again,but i just wouldn't be myself if i'm with her.I wouldn't know what to do, she is just too kind and is great!Only special occasions then we contact is really a sad thing.All the best for tomorrow and a great day ahead!

13/09/2011

2011-09-13T01:51:00.002+08:00

I'm at the stage of confusion that i wants to success but í aren't doing anything.This is the different between a hard working and a lazy person,actually there shouldn't be any confusion.Recently virus hit me and i felt sick,did not know that i'm this fragile and i should build up my body when i'm fully recovered.

31-08-2011

2011-08-31T01:16:00.003+08:00

Have fun with my family celebrating my birthday outside.Have fun with friend outside too,went for a dinner with joseph,Ben and kok cheung!Also Gavin,shao,boon and yong for the company til it ended.My birthday just ended so quickly and life have to go on!My biggest regret is i totally cannot wait for her wishes,is it so hard to post it on my wall!I sometimes really just go back to my olden self keep thinking what are you thinking?Even though i knew sorting out the answer will only hurt myself more!Your one and only wish i really treasure it,3 years back.

28-8-2011

2011-08-28T02:09:00.003+08:00

I didn't know what to start off with typing.I didn't know what had happened to me.I didn't know what i'm thinking.I didn't know what i really wants in life.I only know the currently things i'm doing is totally a waste of time.I know i'm taking my O lvl this year the second time.I know if i not gonna put in my effect i will definitely not gonna make it.My oral is on next wednesday 31st of August.Past few weeks something happens in my family and i didn't expect that to happen in my life.It was so terrible that i didn't knew what to do and what was in me was anger.Tears dropped and proves that i wasn't that strong enough.I once thought that i was mentally prepared to face such problems and always think of the outcome would be set originally like it was.But i was wrong in the end.I don't know whether i'm mentally fine?Or is it i'm too normal?Or is it that i'm too over thoughts?I seriously keep everything to myself,because i knew friends around me are just friends.Nothing much,but i'm always the one lending my ears to them listenning to their problems.But in the end i found out that when i really has a problem no one is willing to listen and will always turn one round to go back to their problem.I hate all these type of bullshit,they are like always saying themself ánd never listen.So i choose to keep stuff myself.I might sound sarcastic here,Emo here,but come on is the fact.Cause such people exist.Everyday of our lifes we're basically comparing.Sometimes i just think that maybe my outer most is showing my joy,my life is great.Í will admit that my life is great,of course a home for me and everythings i need are all around.Whats more should i please for?Sometimes i just think that i couldn't be a better person or should i say that i wanted to be a perfect person.Really Really until now i might still think that i'm not able to forget that i failed my O lvl and i will be hanging on.2011 is a year which let me feel terrible and torture year and is like i'm lost in a desserted land.While my friends were all continue with their journeys.After so much saying i wouldn't know what the problem yet and it probably be that i'm too confuse.I isn't mature enough to think one way through.I also have this feeling right in my heart and i might sounds childish.I thought i could just forgotton her long ago,but recently this feelings stayed.Really horrible,i just knew that she is a wonderful girl to me which i does not deserve to be together with her.She is someone special that no-one ever can replace her.I might be having zero chance now,but who knows in the future.I know i'm fat and ugly,but i'm just accepting the fact if i couldn't change it.Too many stuff hits on me recently and i didn't told anyone else,cause no one really would listen.I just gonna change myself,i hope i will change myself.Two more days and it's my birthday.Birthday to me at today really means nothing.i just wants to wish my family members would live healthy and happy.Pass my O lvl englis so i could move on.Birthday is just another ordinary day,who will remember my birthday if i don't tell them.Friends are just friends.It's just my personal feelings don't get offended by my words and i think no one would really read my blog.So it's okay.

19/06/2011

2011-06-19T23:54:00.003+08:00

It had been weeks since i last post,because i'm lazy to post as there were school and tuition.I had been through alot during these few weeks in ITE and also alot of things had change.I find out that a weird feeling had been in my heart as years past,i thought it would have gone as time past and i found out i was wrong.The feeling was stronger than before even though i knew we weren't match.But it is just like when i look at the photo the smile of hers really melt mine heart,i still have this belief that i would meet her at bus inter-change at the side of east.this feeling wasn't as bad as it was last time,because i'm more mature now.I know what to do because i'm an adult now.If i believe in it and i will strike for it,for everything we do there will be a reason behind it and we have to put in our effort to get it.I learn it through the journey,you will acknowledge me one day.It's just a matter of time as long as i'm determine i will do it,i will find you someday.You are the first girl that i ever fell for and it would be the last one.Okay i got to go for cycling with friends!Good holiday ahead!

25/04/2011

2011-04-25T20:28:00.002+08:00

So envy of my friends now.I regretted not working hard in my english and now i been point to ITE which where i should not be belong.The lifes i wanted where like mine friends,come to think of it i been moaning.Let me just do what ever i can to pass my English this year.

4/23/2011

2011-04-24T10:08:00.002+08:00

Everything is happening so fast and now is already gonna be may soon.It happen so fast that i can't even realize it.Recently just read a story and it really make me pull out the needle,because the moment i knew i was been fooled,i was angry?Most probably,but the important thing is that it's already over.It too happening or am i too slow to catch up?I bet 2011 gonna be another fast year.Good day ahead.

18-04-2010

2011-04-18T21:55:00.003+08:00

今天表姐生了！母女平安，好极了家理又有新的成员。不知今天要写些什么。。。在你们人生有每有喜欢过人呢?我有喜欢过两个，但却只有一个然我念念不忘。可能花的时间比较多，认真，投入。没谈过恋爱。早已没去想了咯~生活不错，我一定要在今年离开那地方。一定！没什么了，这几天会很累希望周末快快来~

12-04-2011

2011-04-12T20:54:00.002+08:00

昨晚太累了回到家就睡。没什么好说的笑笑而过可能会好过，去了不知道为什么有股力量要我想尽方法离开。已经是事实说多也没用，我好想知道她为什么礼拜日打給我。听到却没接，可能老天不要然我知道伤心多一次。

7/04/2011

2011-04-07T23:20:00.001+08:00

我怕忌末，也许我用的办法错了。没人记的。。。失败

4-4-2011

2011-04-04T22:06:00.002+08:00

男人可以为了听到‘我爱你’这三个字而花了不少钱。这跟我想的一样我们怎样看人，人就怎样看回我们。我明知道她在利用我，我为什么还要呢？可能这就是我的缺点，因为我喜欢把没发生的事想多。所以倒至我失败，伤心。为什么第一个和第二个都一样，可能进过这次我想通了，对我而言没有爱亲，至有做爱。我原本相信有缘份，真爱。现在省省吧！不知道是不是年级大了，想法月来月多。我不会在让你们。总于把心里的话说出，舒服！

08-02-2011

2011-02-08T22:44:00.001+08:00

Don't know why so Fuck-up recently.I had been thinking is it my way of using is wrong?But both way told me that neither on is working.Why!???

01-02-2011

2011-02-02T02:35:00.002+08:00

Last Day of work,It's been 2 months almost 3 months i started working.Had gone through lots of thing since i had received mine result and my english was a total freak off and i had been struggling for a few days or even a week.At last i had chosen mine path although i might be okay on the outside but i really mind inside.Stop working and i had no idea what i'm gonna do for my life?I might go back around feb 10-20,i still taking my private O english this year and have to work lots harder.Went back school was really great saw all the teachers but with a different identity really reasure your moment in school because time really flies before you could even realise.Really don't have the ''Tao Hua Yun'' unable to find girls to chat eh!Fucking fustrated,not even given a chance so unfair is this world!Really bored and started finding chat,but some fucking silence i get back.No luck i really given up no point eh,don't know how other people feel about me cause i don't dare to face things or accept things that had been done in the past.That is what people see about me.So saded!Now is to just go for a Happy chinese new year,but to me New year in singapore is very boring is like so fake.Chinese new year in KL is much more Fun and exciting.This 2-3 months i had seen lot of people and finally understand what is the world outside for just a start.Many more is waiting me to hiong!Haha My pay is low low low!What to do?Stay happy!And lastly to all readers Happy Chinese New Year!Yahaha

12-01-2010

2011-01-12T23:22:00.001+08:00

Didn't know that i'm so fragile can't even accept or take this hit,Sometimes i'm confuse,this is really the first time i being such failure.

10-01-2011

2011-01-10T04:42:00.001+08:00

Getting result in few hours time.I will be able to sleep not because i'm worried,is because i'm tired.

09-10-2011

2011-01-09T03:03:00.001+08:00

Too tired to write anymore things,i'm really scare of mine result what to do?I got the feeling that 2011 is gonna be a bad year somehow.Just got my pay,who wanna date with me?Wahaha think too much~

06-01-2011

2011-01-06T04:02:00.001+08:00

Is 2011 and i lost my phone,it is so suay!I have been working in the morning to closing i'm very tired and all the pimples are all coming out!This is shit~REsult coming on the 10th i don't have and confident to get over.What a year

21-12-2010

2010-12-22T01:19:00.002+08:00

Is really time to put down all the bad memories behind and move on to 2011.But seriously i don't know what makes me think of you so much!What so attractive about you?What to do only can envy.

20-12-2010

2010-12-21T02:05:00.002+08:00

2010 gonna end soon,another new year arriving.For 2010,there are really lots of things for memory.I was once very down til the tip,and how i pulled myself up.I hope the sentence you wrote,i was part of it.

13-12-2010

2010-12-14T02:49:00.001+08:00

Yawns

12-12-2010

2010-12-13T02:52:00.001+08:00

Hard to decide~

8-12-2010

2010-12-09T00:50:00.002+08:00

The feeling of Qi Dai once again came back again,If the call was from you i might eventually made it.But you chosen to reject me,how i wish that i could reject you all along.What a bad day...

30-11-2010

2010-12-01T00:31:00.002+08:00

End of November...
Everyday of my work is not like just work for the reason of working,but eventually i learn something new more exposed to the society to the world,no longer like a student sitting in a classroom.Learn new things gain more experiences,that's gonna be my life~
Wahahaha~~That's what i wrote for you!

22-11-2010

2010-11-22T13:28:00.000+08:00

Every seconds of our life we all have different thoughts.

19-11-2010

2010-11-19T02:20:00.000+08:00

Today started work,so damn tired~~But is fun=D

18-11-2010

2010-11-18T01:14:00.000+08:00

Hope the training for 4hrs will go on smooth~~

16-11-2010

2010-11-16T20:30:00.001+08:00

It's getting bored and bored.Hope i could find a job soon!

15-11-2010

2010-11-15T22:45:00.002+08:00

Today was a tiring day,went out for badminton.Then after badminton the group doesn't want to go home that was so shocking when hear of it.Then from 4.30 to 5.30 discussing where to go and end up went to khatib reservoir to slack until 7 then go home.I just found out that i not so good to communicate with them cause the music they listen to was different from me as i belong to the other group.I found out that i can be quite talkative and very quiet also.Somehow i am unable to describle what i am really thinking don't know what is right and what is wrong?Don't know how to describle it,i often like to keep to myself even if i'm sad or feeling uneasy about something,probably until now i don't think there is someone that is able to listen what i say,no one probably i could trust to listen to me.Actually i am not as strong as what you guys are seeing afterall i still have emotions and feelings,who could really understand?I really hope i could find a friend that could really listen to me and i could entrust him/her my thoughts.I did not talk to my parents about these cause i'm an adult in their eyes they entrusted me that i can take care of myself i'm a grown up kid.How i wish everything could go back to the past so that everything will regain normal again.Without hatred,jealousy...Often hear people saying that girls are some sort of hurter that could hurt us boys.They don't really understand either,we have different thoughts,they tried before and just saying for the sake of saying.Finding job,want to earn money hope i will get a job soon.So much thoughts in my mind,i think i should see a doctor?Phew...

14-11-2010

2010-11-14T14:41:00.001+08:00

What do you most regret in your life?Is there anyone with no regret in this world?

11-11-2010

2010-11-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

This is life....

04-11-2010

2010-11-04T21:22:00.002+08:00

Kinda jealous..........
Those who does nothing and can attract people,is like what the....
Those who work so hard to make people remember us,will be a clown....
Such tragic~~

02-11-2010

2010-11-02T22:41:00.002+08:00

Really got to admit i am old sia,Sometimes i think that i am ver sociable but actuallly is to those i know i will often talk lot more.Very tired...Scare hard paper,easy paper also scare they modarate like crazy but whatever it is is over.tml stilll got ss hope i get to know what my tcher is teaching tmr.

30-10-2010

2010-10-30T03:03:00.002+08:00

''O'' levels is going these few weeks.Not really confident that i will be able to go poly!Just back from outside meeting long lost friend,just suddenly feels that human changes and is able to adapt to the surrounding they are now.They are always something lack inside me and i saw something that is abe to motivate me and move one step forward.

23-09-2010

2010-09-23T19:48:00.002+08:00

Hows mine day today?As normal?Those eyes of your really irritates me am i really that transparent?Can't just fucking look at me?You fucking spoilt mine mood for the rest of mine day!Brain have been continuous thinking but its a non-conclusion thinking.REally pissed off,Fucking type!Okay i have no idea who to speak to but blogging it!Life gets bored.Fuck!I will fucking get to marketing in nyp!Fucking assholem!

19-09-2010

2010-09-19T21:36:00.002+08:00

Argh...Headache!!!What comes in mine mind was that when am i gonna be fit?And then when am i gonna start exercise?When am i gonna archieve something in mine life?When???Is it the motivation part?Lazy part?

18-09-2010

2010-09-18T00:19:00.002+08:00

Why do i still have the weird feelings,feeling paiseh!Omg this can't be serious,we are avoiding eye contacts.Facing each other i can't even speak!I'm just feeling weird and it is can't be explain!No old road!Please~~

12-09-2010

2010-09-12T03:10:00.002+08:00

Guess what i'm thinking now?About My O lvl,Not about girls anymore!Is not good if keep think about it.Let everything handle by fate,it will come when is the correct time.Now i think of my future,make more money,drive nice car,high position and leading a Good life!Be as fit as possible,That what i'm thinking.24hrs is really not enough!Few weeks later O lvl,After that work,work hard not for money but a better life!=)

08-09-2010

2010-09-08T11:03:00.002+08:00

Mature is the word to say.Some of my friends are already thinking about money and i'm here thinking other things like kids.Watching show that are meant for kids,like master riders etc...Lol i think is the time to be growing up and start using my brain for better future.I found that i getting lazy exam is weeks apart and i sought of no motivation.

30-08-2010

2010-08-30T22:55:00.002+08:00

Okay finally i'm 17!HaHa... ...Today i received sms wishes from my friend and received present and cards from my friends.Quite surprise that my friend bought me a pair of slippers and another was for coins!Okay then just came back from outside,friends celebrated with me and bought me a cake.Touch okay,Haha and also my family Thanks everyone very much!Although 1 year had pass i seems to be waiting a girl to send me a message but this time is a different girl.I had been waiting for such things to happen but another 1 hour 4minutes is end of my birthday so i don't think i will receive any?1 year and is another different person i'm waiting.=D

28-08-2010

2010-08-28T23:19:00.002+08:00

Next Monday i'm 17!So great to be another year older and another year stresser!Will you remember? As i already forgotten yours. I don't think many remembered my birthday cause every year also same,never improve!Prelim result was sucking!

19-08-2010

2010-08-19T20:21:00.002+08:00

Quite dissapointed with my O lvl mt result C5 only...Hope of getting a B4 at least!Dont' feel like retaking half half feeling,then need to do fking hard well on my other subject.

15-08-2010

2010-08-15T23:13:00.002+08:00

It's sunday and tomorrow is monday and Prelim had just started and yet i'm not preparing.the past few days i had not been doing any revision and had been playing and slacking.Tomorrow is math paper 1 and geo,i think this time de prelim i gonna do quite badly.English O lvl oral is on thursday and i hope i really can cope as i'm doing last minute work and everything will be banging together.So i hope i reallly can don't use computer from tomorrow onwards and hope i really has the determination.Until Prelims is over i think i will be concentrating more than before,i hope i really does it not by saying it.Cause is O lvl i made it so far and i don't wish to waste the opportunity and i haven't yet done what i had set for myself last year.Jiayou i hope i can do it!

12-08-2010

2010-08-12T18:48:00.002+08:00

Okay today is my Mum's birthday and wish her Happy Birthday!Celebrating later on!Tomorrow prelim starts so fast uh,i'm starting to scare weekends cause i know i will not do any revision.Next wednesday will be getting back our ''O'' lvl Mt paper,Finally come back already and Hope can get Good result.This afternoon i just heard from the stall auntie telling me that Ah gong go already,i was thinking what go already?Then i came out of something,Ah Gong had just past away.I was like shock,although i wasn't close to Ah gong but i also will feel sad about this incident.They were the soya bean stall last time in our school and the Ah ma there was damn Good often talk to her and if i want to eat bean curb she will specially make for me.But now she is not in school selling.The whole family was good,especially the stall selling drinks now.The auntie was once selling bread and all stuff she often gave us the unsold bread to me as i am staying back for night class.So i hope Ah gong rest in peace and the whole family stay strong especially Ah ma.This shows how fragile we humans were so do what you think is right,get what you want leave no regrets.You will not know what is coming in front,never let yourself regret another time.

10/08/2010

2010-08-10T21:58:00.002+08:00

Okay today is tuesday and for the past 5 days i had been doing nth but playing.Prelim just few days ahead alot topics have not been covered,and that shit!OH My i getting worried about my ''O'' lvl!Each and every morning i open my eyes my brain cells is full of ''O'' Lvls moving round and round...Hope i will not use com tmr!

01/08/2010

2010-08-02T00:04:00.002+08:00

It's sunday and tmr will be Monday and it's another tiring week.Weekends always pass so fast,Pre-lims coming means that O lvl is arriving soon.Not well equiped,but some of my friends made use of every second they had,but i'm just wasting away like free of charge.I really hope that i could be an amazing guy who makes full use of mine time.But if everything could restart i will still choose the same path,afterall that what i am.Just like what i had said earlier on if i could restart i will not change anything.How desired i am now to have you beside me,studying together and able to keep an eye on me.I'm just lack of that and then my life will be perfect,everyone need that and it will make your life to higher level.If everything could restart it will be still you,the only you i'm desired on.Tired So so Tired...

30-07-2010

2010-07-30T22:46:00.002+08:00

This week was a fine week,had been raining for a few days.Did Chemistry experiment today in school wasn't smooth for me,i thought it would be easy or i was able to cope.Had been asking teacher and we will have another practical test next monday after school.Next monday will be a very very tired day for me,Will have to run 2.4km.Don't why the school is square brain or what?!Saying that our Nafa test was below average.I was telling my teacher that we are graduating this year,why can't we just play games and bond together?!She did not replied me but asking me to go to my next lesson.But to her style she will just follow the rule like a sqaure brain and ask us to run,Oh man is just a few months why can't just let us play game?Arghh...I really enjoying myself during P.E while we are playing games!During PSME lesson today my form teacher asked gave us an assignment to fill,it's about your dream and about being a singaporean.Not quite remember the question,so the part on my dream,i wrote that i wanted to be a teacher at a age of 40+,my second career to pass down to the future generation of what i had learnt in Naval Base secondary school.The teachers there inspire me to be one,and my first career will be still unknown but i already planned that i will start my career at age 25 and spend 5 years time to climb higher get promoted to higher ranking in the company.At the age of 30 i will own a car and this is when my life starts i will do social work to repay back to the society and country contribute as much as i could.Seriously speaking,having an aim in your life make your life even better.You won't be headless on where you wanna go.And i had been wondering when someone covers their ears what does that mean?A classmate of mine does it and i had been wondering long.Hmmm...Sleeping soon very tired!

2010-07-24T09:39:00.002+08:00

Just came back from outside,i'm damn tired.I wonder what time will i wake up later?Okay todays posting will be the same,but i had been using my brain currently to think through and through.What i want for me life?What am i gonna achieve when i'm stil young?After seeing my frens some of them weren't interested to go back to school.So i think it is better for them to be working outside,thats suit them.As in they are getting used to it.We are 17 and we wanted to achieve what people are having at a age of 30 or even older!For my O's i will just say i will give it all i got,What outcome i will not regret.So tired gonna slp now!

18-07-2010

2010-07-18T23:38:00.002+08:00

I had a deadly headache and food poisoning yesterday.I think was the maggi mee i ate on friday night.Whole body felt so shaggy,didn't have a good rest still need to complete my homework.Went chamber with friends until morning,i planned not to go ask i tried not to answer their calls.I feel abit bastard,but seriously i am very tired and sick.But at last, i answer theirs call.They tried the first time to ask me go,but i rejected.And then few seconds later,they call back again.Then at last i followed them,is quite fun.Slept till 5plus,woke up to write my compo.Just finished!There goes my weekend uh...The coming week will be tiring!

13-07-2010

2010-07-13T23:12:00.002+08:00

Just went back from night class 2 hours ago.Is my First time spending the night in the new school,Virgin Okay!HaHa.Tired is the only word to descible and time pass fast.I want to be a Drummer when i go to poly and become another Taylor Lautner,It's can be Accomplish Okay!It's been a tired and fun day {Laugh}...Time to Sleep!

10-07-2010

2010-07-10T23:16:00.002+08:00

I'm seriously dead Bored&Tired!What is my occupation 10yrs down the road?I want lots of money,car and a Girlfriend.I need to work extremely hard!Gd luk to those having oral next week.

06-07-2010

2010-07-06T21:46:00.002+08:00

I did not go to school today,slept late the other night,when i was ready it was already 8.17 and i don't feel like going so i stayed at home doing Math tys.I starting to get scare now july already and i'm still in this mode if this continue i think i not going anywhere.Sometimes i feel like not studying anymore,going out and work?The life outside is hard thats what my friend told me and i'm in the middle of nowhere lost in the night.I'm so deadly wanted to get out of secondary life moving onto other stages but i don't know why i don't give a damn of it.I used to think that i'm a useful person but now i think that i'm a useless person,for this whole 7months i had been saying must work hard but everytime either lazy or go out with friend.I seriously can't handle my time management,I'm so Dead Lazy!I don't often skipped school last year because i wanted to go up to sec5,Humans are like this the things they are aimming for they will treasure it but when u holding on to it you will let it go easyily.Now?Laugh...Maths?Question getting more demanding.Chemistry?Getting more demanding not like sec 4,and i think i'm not fit to be the chem peer group leader.Phy?Last year still got friend help?Now all busy with their stuff.Geo?Don't need say that's bullshit.Eng?That's the one and only thing i'm headache on.What can be done for the next 4months?Laugh, i will have a hard time.There was once a motivation but it no longer exist.How i hope you are around so that i can tell you everything i had it would be better.Wrong thoughts leads to the problem.Having a opposite sex Friend to hear you moaning wouldn't be great?Everything is 缘分,Blame that we有缘无分.My degree of seeing things had widen.I think that night class starting tomorrow,hope that there is bus to drive us home if not i will be squeezing in the train.I guess i will be drop dead tired,is always better than staying at home using computer.Good Luck to my Friend&Brothers get what you wanted cause we are 17 not small kids anymore,should be able to hand things smoothly.Most important Stay health.I'm looking forward for the next trip to genting.Wish me Good Luck =D.90011215 contact me!HaHa

04-07-2010

2010-07-04T04:33:00.002+08:00

Watched Eclispe on 01-07-2010,it was nice those who havent watch faster go cinema!Haven't settled myself down the past 2days,had been very tired.These few days i had been thinking and finally i had an idea,i knew what i wanted now so i will head towards the direction and everything gonna put aside.After my O Lvl i gonna do tons of things,The first thing will be 2nd Taylor Lautner's Figure.HaHa He's so Hot!!!Omgx i not gonna deny that X).Okay thats all Stay happy everyone i know.

01-07-2010

2010-07-01T01:45:00.002+08:00

School can be bored without any girls around X).No choice hard people having the harder life.Theres always something i wanna talk about,but i don't know what the thing i wanna talk about?Kinda weird...Where the Girl i wanted so badly?!Omgx is not showing up,Wasted my past 4years uh?Trying to recall back,the past 4 years i don't really did anything to change my life,Something that is sucessful,proud?Would it be good to read someone's mind?So there wouldn't be so many misunderstanding,guessing?Can be very lonely sometimes or most of the times.

26-06-2010

2010-06-26T05:58:00.002+08:00

What Fear do you have?The stress and Fear i now having was like last year,but heavier.Unable to sleep at this moment of time,once i close my eyes my mind just can't stop thinking about the months left and how much time i had wasted.I only has this short period of time left to improve my english but i'm not willing to give my everything in it.I don't know how long i can perserve.

20-06-2010

2010-06-21T03:24:00.002+08:00

Who do you misses when u're alone in the night while u're sleeping?

13-06-2010

2010-06-13T23:11:00.002+08:00

Sunday Rainy day.Have alot of thoughts these few weeks about future,friends,career,the things i like and 'O' level.Recently i forget one thing that i ought to remember,i don't know whether is that a good or a bad sign?Trying to recall but everything was mixing up,ended up become messy,Laugh!There goes my friend trip again,HaHa,You will have my bless,Laugh!I think i will be starting to revise my subjects,had been playing the past few weeks.Preasure ah...No one can help me expect myself!This is the stress that everyone has to progress and to my juniors study very very hard,never bluff you!

05-06-2010

2010-06-05T07:28:00.002+08:00

Just reached home and i'm not tired X).Went to friend's Ah ma song ka but on the way there i saw someone that really look like you,for the while i thought it was really you and my heartbeats were abnormal,after i took a closer look,i realise it wasn't you.Hah!When on the way back home,i was sitting behind the lorry and the air resistance(wind) blew towards me vigourously as the lorry is speeding and the wind gave me alot of thoughts and i decided for the final half-year i will be concentrating on 2 things.Yah thats my Night=X

31-05-2010

2010-05-31T22:07:00.002+08:00

''O'' lvl Mt paper ended.Still got other paper left, intensive remedial starts tomorrow can't enjoy my holiday like sec 1&2.Playing all day long!Memories of sec 2,after school go home maple,during class also talk about maple.Lol now?Everyday teacher tell us Ten Years series,after school also Ten Years series!After doing it,it make me feel Ten Years younger...What a joke^^...Have plenty of things inside my mind now,In what way is a person feeling happy?When they laugh?Cry?0.o

25-05-2010

2010-05-26T00:05:00.003+08:00

Today lesson ended on 4.40pm,tiring day and my father brought me to indian temple...Guess what?He told me the location was at kranji and his friend called him telling him it was at yishun!WTH we alrd reached Kranji-,-!!!Guess what next?yishun only have one and only indian temple and it was just near my school-,- one big round and back to yishun...REached there was around early 5 plus can't remember clearly and then straight until 8pm!!!Piang Eh Firstly i had no idea what the person is doing i did what instruction was given.I did not say anything cause is some form of respecting my father and in front of his friends,and also have very little time outing with my father.I only belief on what i belief,so i don't give a ''damn'' of it BUT i still respected the gods there.Thats all very sickening tired day i had...

23-05-2010

2010-05-23T22:52:00.002+08:00

Today was an unexpected sunday So Shocking!The story goes like this...
I was sitting on my sofa having my breakfast and there is a table which have snacks and Tibbits on it.Since it was morning and i felt cold so i set the fan facing the table.After a while,i was watching tv show and i heard some noise coming from the table.For the first time i did pay attention to it because the fan was on that direction so i assume is the fan making the sound.But it's getting louder,so i turned my head to see what there.To my surprise, i saw a black head looking at me.Everything was silence for a few seconds before i start to react.The next thing i knew it was a RAT !And i AHHHH and started jumping to the door,on the mean time the RAt was scared by my reaction.My upper body was trembling and my lower body was shivering...I was unable to continue with my breakfast.After a while the RAt came out again and this time it no longer scare of me,most probably it knew that i scare of it more than it does to me.The figure of the RAt was huge and Scary!It start to bite the Big pack maggi and it intruded in.This time i did something pathetic,what i did was i started to make Meow Moew sound to scare the RAt...Although is pathetic but it works,the Rat went silent inside the maggi pack.My Mum came out of the room and i told her a RAt came in-,-!!!She say she catch it later and went back room continue watching her show.The noise of the enjoying RAt made me unable to concentrate on my compo,so i decided to go out and finished it.Not long my Mum came out again and the Hunting game i did not watch because i will not do anything except screaming or shouting.At last, the Rat was chase out by my Mum,Guess what after a while the Rat came back again-,-!!!But this time my Mum was smart,she saw the Black ASssHolem was trying to sneak in,She used the broom to chase it out again!And the whole day my wooden door was close.REally it's a tiring morning for me,but all thanks to the Scary ASssholem made me more energetic!

An Unexpected Sunday

22-05-2010

2010-05-23T00:56:00.002+08:00

''O'' level Mt paper getting nearer and nearer,did my Mt compo hope it is not out of point.Quite a boring day today indeed,or should i say everyday of my day is boring?!Anyways to make my life more lively?Everyday is a tired day,Can't just keep my eyes switch-on...?No matter how much i rest it's still insufficient...Hmm when will be the next going to Kbox or Ktv?Maybe third week of june holiday?Gonna catch two movie during june,one is eclispe on 29/6 and the other one is about legend of Ip on 24/6 Excited?Not so,This shows that more and more pressure approaching me!Are you a Demon or an Angel?!It is common nowadays or i am too sensitive?Such a fictitious world.

19-05-2010

2010-05-19T21:41:00.002+08:00

Well Mid-Year results were out,failed 3 subjects-Eng,Mt and combine Hum.Able to pass my Ss but my Geo was a total gone.Miss yzelman said she asked Vp to coach me in my Geo,Hope it will be better then.''O'' level Mt paper is coming,is on 31-05-2010 this crucial two weeks will have more Mt lesson and i hope everything gonna be fine.I'm more serious than before towards Mt,After that Mt paper really have to start revisions and meeting Miss Tang to boost on my Language.This means that i will not have a single time to relax and it's all cover with stress,once i was told that ''O'' levels were stress and i thought that i would able to go through it,but it was another thing when i'm now having it.Past Few days really played rather hard especially saturday,sunday and monday.Sunday the whole were outside with friends had our dinner at Bugis after that went Ssc to bought my speaker and thanks to my friends to help me fixed if not i will be the one crying at home HaHa.Monday went bought sound card and then fixed it inside my com then the speaker can be used,spent quite a sum of money and now the pocket is burnt.HaHa,Monday went Kbox with friends for 4Hours i really enjoyed it man,it's been so long since i hold the mic!I think going soon with my classmates on the 3rd week of holiday.Did not do quite well for my chemistry this time round scored a B3,Sorry Miss Boon ''O'' level standard of chemistry was totally different from last year,it's more demanding.But i will do better than mid-year in prelim,A1 is what i wanted and i will do anything to get it so is my Maths and P.O.A.Mr Loong just reminded me what i said last year on one of the night class i went,He stilled remembered what i told him and myself and now i'm not doing what i told him.The last half-year i got really have to catch -up,Sometimes result can bring someone's emotion down to the max that how i felt now.But will do better,So this gonna be my Last post?Won't be online too often like last time,so i hope this is the Last Post.Bye Gd Luk all my Frens out there!=D

01-05-2010

2010-05-01T02:25:00.005+08:00

A mysterious person that had been in my mind for a few months came to view.Shocked?Sad?Neither of them.I find it quite weird that two of my classmates are appearently Weird?I alrd put down the matter so why don't you?Maybe i'm wrong to judge but appearently thats what i had observed.Joke another one even joke feel like punching him down to hell man!One independent ordinary guy which doesn't put you in his eyes,Pui.Sometime i'm been thinking do i have friends in this class or competitor,except some of my olden friends those are really called friends.Alot things had changed,is time to independent on my studies.Brothers of mine schooling de continue study hard i believe that praying will not bring you anywhere?Working de work harder.Popi You all!

Marcus/AhFat

28-04-2010

2010-04-28T21:38:00.004+08:00

Really very stress for taking ''O'' lvl,Popi i BotaiBoJi Poly!It's just only a small matter i had been telling to myself.But why each and everytime was a different story,i just can't get it right for once.I had alrd had an answer in my mind but it seems like i'm denying it,it's really immpossible for **** someone so easily...Wth am i?._.

24-04-2010

2010-04-25T03:11:00.004+08:00

It's been awhile since i got the chance to see the same old sms coming in.I glad it replied but sad to know that it was me but wasn't me.It's been months and is something was wrong?Every single bit stays inside my mind,everything change since i knew something,something that i shouldn't had discovered.I really want to open my heart and check what actually gone wrong and fix it.But the fact is i can't,how long this thing gonna follow me?Is it depends on my whether i'm walking out?Then i'm the stubborn and Stupid.Just like what you had said maybe i'm well covered-up but i will still end-up being sad.Can't be more mature

16-04-2010

2010-04-16T23:46:00.004+08:00

Wow it's weekend!Before i knew it,it already over... ...Quite relax today play badminton during PE lesson due to the rain i was unable to run outside so sad~~Feel like sleeping,but i willl try to finish Breaking dawn by this week.I had been guessing what the meaning?Tired and tempting

14-04-2010

2010-04-14T21:45:00.003+08:00

Today was another tired day and is also Miss Tang's birthday!Hah i feel so bad for not getting a present for her,wish her have a nice day.Tomorrow still got chinese and SS test!

13-04-2010

2010-04-13T21:32:00.002+08:00

It's seems like i have too many regrets in my life.Spending the 5th year in school and yet is just getting the education only and worst still my studies isn't good.Kind of regret why i didn't spent my past 4 years wisely and create history in school.Too many regrets in my life and it has not been changing,by the age of mine we should excel in all sections.Sometimes feel like giving up hope because sometimes somethings is very hard to start at this age.No choice i chooen this path myself just have to blame myself for choosing the wrong path.As for now my studies are whole crap,totally can't cope for some subject feel like dropping out of school since the O level fee is not deducted.My mind have been recycling about the kinder bueno story and it's been bothering me long and i think my brain cells are badly damaged.When will i reach the acceptance stage?More time?Indeed i have no more time left.And probably this is part of the reason.I don't know what i'm typing here and what had i been doing the past 4 months?Craps?Worst of me,how could i forget the commitment made for myself if i can promote to sec 5 and saying proudly infront of Mr loong.And now looking at myself i find it's a joke.Come to think of something,someone still owe me sweet and i did not receive any after that day.You said you will passed it to me tomorrow and i had been waiting since then (thursday).Still have this stupid thoughts that you would eventually chat with me,i'm so naive!If time can travel i would choose not to happen all this.Someone should just point a knife on my heart position and just poke through it and i wish the someone is you.

11-04-2010

2010-04-11T21:04:00.004+08:00

Back from embarassment,Get over it and move on.Moving into dreamy state!Twilight eclispe will be out on june 30th!Oh my this world is so totally unfair,What if one day i'm Jacob Black?!ShitAss then go school sure kill Lot's Lot's Pretty girls!Hah... ...But so bad i'm Marcus Ng!Very hard to say one maybe oneday i become Jacob Ng!Hah... ...I watched the trailer and Jacob said something!Jacob:I'm gonna protect you(Bella) until your heartbeat stop beating.So So So Vigourly touching,But in the end Bella doesn't belong to Jacob What a ShitAss!Must watch Eclispe!!!Peepos

09-04-2010

2010-04-10T00:39:00.001+08:00

So embarassing today in school libary,didn't expect that to happened too sudden!So embarassing,So bad!No more Face!!!!

Problem

2010-04-08T23:02:00.002+08:00

Life is really full of problems.Sometime is very hard to describle what type of problem is it.Alot of things can be solved but some could not,is just like sometime a thing can bother you for a long period of time even though you have thoughts of solving it,it will still be a 3minutes warning.It's being recycling inside my brain over and over again,it's seem like it couldn't be solved so i will just leave it until it's gone.More important things are waiting for me to do and it's just part of my life,still a learning journey at my age.I really hope one day i will be someone that is passionate but not in the time being.

8-04-2010

2010-04-08T01:01:00.002+08:00

Wow another week gone!This few days very very lazy!At night sleep very late,because of dota!Alot things happened this few days, got up's and down's... ...Just got back the chemistry test paper today and scored 19/25 which is a not high mark,quite low this time get!Turning crazy soon...

31-03-2010

2010-03-31T23:44:00.002+08:00

Tired&Big disappointment...Extremely in sarcastic mood=/

30-03-2010

2010-03-30T23:26:00.003+08:00

Carbon Monoxide,Carbon Monoxide,Carbon Monoxide,Carbon Monoxide,Carbon Monoxide!!!Hope i will get top for tomorrow's test paper which i'm not welly prepared!

30-03-2010

2010-03-30T21:02:00.002+08:00

Hmm...My life aren't normal this year!Have been currently dota and neglect studies-.- Sibei jialak!Want study no time dota,Want dota no time study!!!ShitAss~~WeW Oh My!SChool Grass is attracting me deeper!ShitAss i will pawn That down!Btw Happy birthday to MingFang~jealous sia so fast 17!Haha Wish her All the Best for this year!=DSame goes to Hope5-1

29-03-2010

2010-03-29T20:24:00.003+08:00

How Perfect will my life be having Throat Tad Bao and Carbon Monoxide!Hah';>But most likely it would be Carbon monoxide!Crazy already,See longer find it very sui!!!Siao liao she is turning me Crazy~~

28-03-2010

2010-03-28T21:31:00.002+08:00

Oh my...I'm so deeply hurt!Bella married with Edward and is Jacob gonna kill Edward?I doubt he won't because of Bella!It's getting more and more exciting Stay tune to www.devoted15-love.blogspot.com~~HaHa

26-03-2010

2010-03-27T03:23:00.002+08:00

So sleepy now or should i say so sleepy for the whole day.Yesterday night slept around 5am and wake up on 7.05am didn't want to go school today,but i recieve a msg from my friend and then i decided to go to school.Also have 2.4km run today and made it a 17.48 timing although still fail but got improve compare to last week.Tired~~

25-03-2010

2010-03-25T21:55:00.003+08:00

Phew finally friday is approaching me~2.4km test tomorrow gonna run like a dog again!Eclispe is finally down and breaking dawn is up,i expect more from the movie of eclispe which is coming out on 30th june.The Kissing part!!!HaHa...i already planned to read 7books for this year after twilight i will be reading a book called what jackson which have 5books!Shiok!Getting new equipment and gonna sell away the old equipment!Depreciation!

22-03-2010

2010-03-22T23:24:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile since i went to tumblr.Over the time i felt like going but i did not.Actually i can be simple minded so that my life will be more easier~~Left the last topic of eclispe i will finish it off by tonight.

22-03-2010

2010-03-22T03:26:00.002+08:00

Still awake,just finished doing my english composition.Still left a few in chemistry but hopefully i can slide through without letting the teacher noticing.Hah smart one,if not wasted the 10years of my education!Not sure whether i gonna sleep or stay awake till morning?!But i'm sure that i gonna read eclispe~HaHa!

20-03-2010

2010-03-20T23:29:00.002+08:00

Still left with english compo and chemistry 10 years series homework!English compo is cracking my brain totally have no idea what to write,as for chemistry i think there aren't any difficulties is just that need to do alot of workings.School starting soon,before i get to know it,it already ended...Gonna finish my eclispe soon and got to borrow dawn from friend=D

19-03-2010

2010-03-19T23:22:00.002+08:00

Went sentosa today and the weather today was totally not good,around 2plus it rain heavily.Just back and wanted to use my old computer but it's as per normal spoilt!Big progress on reading the book eclispe it's getting more and more exciting i can't wait for the movie to be out!At this point of time i'm really really so tempt,Seriously i'm losing control!!!I really hope later i don't do the wrong thing.Same old problem keep recycling in my brain,no choice which means during this parts of my life will be hard and i still believe that time is everything.

17-03-2010

2010-03-18T00:28:00.002+08:00

Went gym today and also went back school find Miss Boon for chemistry.Asked her two question less than 5minutes and then ByeBye.Today also okay okay,Not as bad as yesterday!

16-03-2010

2010-03-16T19:23:00.002+08:00

Today is such a tiring day,never sleep for one night and i'm damn...Brought my grandmum to TTH for her eye check-up and it was a great experience.First time bring grandmum to such a far place and during the journey i was like don't know what to chat with her.I'm totally weak in hokkien,While she was talking to me i was like Ha Ha HA?!I think she will be fustrated,hopefully not!While waiting for her,luckily i got a book with me ECLISPE!!!OMG... ...First read book can read until so imaginative,not bad got improvement.After everything,we went to kopitiam which was on level 1 of TTH and have our meal there.After that we took cab and finally i sent her back home.Then went khatib mac find friends slack until 6 plus while they were doing their homework which i already finished.Now back home and is freaking tired~~BTW 100TH post sio!Grats GRats... Just now at mac or at other place or should i say at any point of time i have been thinking of the past,maybe is good or bad.Went out with friend yesterday night and was trying to help me on certain things of how to pull back the friendship.But i think it's not necessary i scare it will be worst i scare won't get a single reply and will be very awkward in school.I wished i got the courage but is just that i don't dare,keep thinking of the consequences.I don't know how long this thing gonna drag me,but to most of my friends they see the case of mine is like is not a big matter and they were confuse what i'm down for?I also don't know why also,maybe time is everything.I hope I wish.

10-03-2010

2010-03-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

Oh My God i'm so tempt!!!

8-3-2010

2010-03-08T22:19:00.002+08:00

Study Study Study Study!!!Changing from tomorrow onwards,not gonna dream on something that is impossible.Work towards it!Gonna remembered what i said last year!What a tired day for me or should i say that everyday is a tired day for me...Went to watch movie just now at Cway.''Being Human''>Quite a nice show must watch!That all for today...